So this is Pascus, He's a random character I made in Kaylink
's new wolf maker. Originally I had a quick flash of an idea for another new character and the idea solidified in the wolf maker. I've been debating which world I want to put him in: Vexi's or The Numbers... He's a work in progress and already has a posse all his own. He's pretty cool--I think. :3
This picture was intended to be a quick coloring sketch with some crappy cell shading, and since I was listening to some really uplifting music, I couldn't stop...
Anyways, I'm on my period and I've been PMSing like the dickens. And so I've been overly emotional. I drew this picture because I needed something to help me become confident in my work again and to worship God. Some of you are probably like, "Teh Fuq? Why does Vexi feel unconfident in her work... Ish awesome~!
" Well as a matter of fact, my artwork is my baby and my heart laid out on paper--er on a computer screen. But what made me feel this way was a couple of years ago I had an opportunity to go to a internet video game company, and while I was there I met one of the best artist in the country. Everyone was super nice but when I went to show her my best work at the time, she laughed and never told me why. Later when she was giving me advice on how to improve (learning to do traditional art and whatnot), which I thought was cool, she strongly implied that I needed to get away from animals and wolves and focus on drawing people. Essentially what I understood is that she told me that no one who takes art seriously would look or enjoy my work.
I never would have expected that something like this would have effected me so deeply, but I think it was because her skill was something I'd been aspiring to and her status in the art community. Well, that was a few years ago and I still feel like I have to prove myself. I've never stopped drawing what I love, but it never helped to have that concept in my head. Yesterday I basically broke down because I was PMSing, overly emotional, and when the topic came up all of my bottled emotions came pouring out. My mom talked to me and comforted me, reminding me that I'm not here to impress anyone and that I need to do what I love. She told me that the devil was telling me that I'd never be good enough to achieve anything. So I'm still a little sensitive about it but I'm going to focus on doing what I love for both myself and God, and I'll see where He takes me~
Anyways I hope you all like my new charrie and I'm sorry for emotionally barfing on you all. Thanks for reading the whole thing if you did, if not that's fine. You probably don't need emotional drama in your life.
Pascus (c) Me